He Loves me
He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.
Eyes of fire
lips inspire
world full of liars
you lift me higher
The only luck i've had
is when i found you
for the world we live
together to me is true.
hand in hand
you an i will venture this land
eyes to eyes
we realize the worlds plastic disguise
How could i have realized
what would happen at my own demise
how could i have cried
at losing who wasn't mine.
Now i sit, laughing a bit
at how life turned around
smacked me in shock on the ground
for you i have found
my life has meaning, it is a silent sound
love i have discovered
love different than a mothers
for you are my one and only
the butterflies flutter.
He loves me not
he loves me
is the last petal i picked
knowing this was it.
worth fighting for,
battle scars, and troubled lures.
i fought, now i am yours.
petals floating aimlessly, he loves me
hits the floor.
As this life we live together
opening up a new door.
I turned the knob,
your controlling the hinges
breaking the jam, with a sledgehammer in hand.
i will get in, and you will admit.
you love me.
flowers never lie.
He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.
left to wither
with a solemn choice
left with a mouth and voice
nothing to say
not today
rather than
he loves me.
C.MacGinnis
12/13/10
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
I-95
I-95
09/17/10
It was a trip written for the books
with the long hours, and the loving looks.
hearing the semi's fly on by
keeping the peace with our little guy.
Stopped at the fast food
of a strange little town
unsure if we should sit and eat
or drive and scarf it down.
looking for a hotel
seemed like a task
stick to shanty motels
is more than we could ask.
Passenger is telling her love
slow down, we're almost there
no need to get into a wreck
or another car door scare.
Driver laughs in good humor
at the passengers concern
for she always has something to say
how far to go, and which way to turn.
We spent this trip together
never to stop and think
of all the bad things that used to get us down
we left them at the Hudson river in Albany.
I learned so much of who you are
and why i love you so
i learned how much i wanted you
and how our relationship shines like gold.
Maybe down the line
we will make another trip
maybe we will find
a route that will stick.
We will venture once again
in a year or so thats it.
and when we do
i know its true
you and i like a puzzle
we fit..on our journey's
on our adventures of this
little road trip.
-Crystal MacGinnis
09/17/10
It was a trip written for the books
with the long hours, and the loving looks.
hearing the semi's fly on by
keeping the peace with our little guy.
Stopped at the fast food
of a strange little town
unsure if we should sit and eat
or drive and scarf it down.
looking for a hotel
seemed like a task
stick to shanty motels
is more than we could ask.
Passenger is telling her love
slow down, we're almost there
no need to get into a wreck
or another car door scare.
Driver laughs in good humor
at the passengers concern
for she always has something to say
how far to go, and which way to turn.
We spent this trip together
never to stop and think
of all the bad things that used to get us down
we left them at the Hudson river in Albany.
I learned so much of who you are
and why i love you so
i learned how much i wanted you
and how our relationship shines like gold.
Maybe down the line
we will make another trip
maybe we will find
a route that will stick.
We will venture once again
in a year or so thats it.
and when we do
i know its true
you and i like a puzzle
we fit..on our journey's
on our adventures of this
little road trip.
-Crystal MacGinnis
Friday, August 13, 2010
Radiant Romance
Radiant Romance
C.MacGinnis
It started with turbulence
unsure which step to take
in this alluring dance.
unsure of the actions i should make
with this loving trance.
Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
Happiness is easy
when I'm with you.
the world revolves
at the same tempo
my heart beats are true.
Taking a step
towards a better life
taking a leap
never ending this
incredible fight
for love in life.
You had a bad time
with the ones before
always underestimating
what you have in store.
You found me now,
by your side i am proud
this dance is picking up beat
and were heading for the moon
in the stars we meet.
spinning wildly
into a unknown future
knowing we will be with each other
has closed all my past sutures
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.
Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
the moon shines for us.
Your as bright as the sun,
now its our turn to have the fun.
and escape this treacherous place together
with a fast paced run.
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.
8/13/10
C.MacGinnis
It started with turbulence
unsure which step to take
in this alluring dance.
unsure of the actions i should make
with this loving trance.
Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
Happiness is easy
when I'm with you.
the world revolves
at the same tempo
my heart beats are true.
Taking a step
towards a better life
taking a leap
never ending this
incredible fight
for love in life.
You had a bad time
with the ones before
always underestimating
what you have in store.
You found me now,
by your side i am proud
this dance is picking up beat
and were heading for the moon
in the stars we meet.
spinning wildly
into a unknown future
knowing we will be with each other
has closed all my past sutures
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.
Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
the moon shines for us.
Your as bright as the sun,
now its our turn to have the fun.
and escape this treacherous place together
with a fast paced run.
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.
8/13/10
Thursday, July 22, 2010
I'm Thinkin' of You.
Its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moon's shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
couple clouds in sight
all the stars put up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you
summers night fervency
works its way right through me
i wish i was holdin' you tight
cause I'm thinkin' of you tonight.
memories i choose to play in my mind
remind me of a peaceful time
a time when all the world was fine
if even for that moment
when i saw it in your eyes
that you wanted to be mine.
the fireworks, in the pouring rain,
on the fourth of July.
another warm summer night,
and I'm thinkin' of you.
I hear my feet against the road
making a sound of easy going pursuit
knowing that no matter where i go
the rhythm would stay the same.
because its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you.
lets take this path
heads forward, aggressive and ready
take this world by the horns
and tell the unbelievers to shove it.
tired of what they have to offer
when all i really see
is the man who stands with a purpose
right directly in front of me
Its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moons shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
a couple of clouds in sight
makes for a inspiring sight
stars puttin' up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you.
7/22/10
C.MacGinnis
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moon's shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
couple clouds in sight
all the stars put up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you
summers night fervency
works its way right through me
i wish i was holdin' you tight
cause I'm thinkin' of you tonight.
memories i choose to play in my mind
remind me of a peaceful time
a time when all the world was fine
if even for that moment
when i saw it in your eyes
that you wanted to be mine.
the fireworks, in the pouring rain,
on the fourth of July.
another warm summer night,
and I'm thinkin' of you.
I hear my feet against the road
making a sound of easy going pursuit
knowing that no matter where i go
the rhythm would stay the same.
because its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you.
lets take this path
heads forward, aggressive and ready
take this world by the horns
and tell the unbelievers to shove it.
tired of what they have to offer
when all i really see
is the man who stands with a purpose
right directly in front of me
Its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moons shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
a couple of clouds in sight
makes for a inspiring sight
stars puttin' up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you.
7/22/10
C.MacGinnis
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Manipulative con.
Manipulative Con.
Managing your thoughts
into believing she's true.
she contradicts herself
into feel brand new.
she will make sure you never forget her name
by making known to you
what she will never change.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
You have a skill in your performance
always putting on a show
never sure who is watching
but it only matters if they are
willing to give you more.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Going around like a tornado
always changing your image
always skipping your path
always destroying everyone
who wasn't fit to pass.
your tests.
Image is everything
next to material
what would it take for
her to be real?
a drastic occurrence
a slap in the face
she needs to decide
what her fangs want to taste.
it's like looking into
the evil eyes of Medusa
make haste. make haste.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Your an old spool of thread
ready to eradicate
wrapped around yourself
with no one left to cripple
no more trades with the devil.
nothing left to possess..
leaving nothing simple.
until then, in case your hungry
the name brand baby food is on aisle 4.
bring a name brand bib
in case you dribble all over the floor.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Take what you think you have accomplished
with all of these suppressed people
take all this excitement
cast it out of your thick pampered head.
shoot it until it's dead.
Making a bad image
for women alike
making us look like
a poison in the night
your game is so clear
and your mind is so lost.
find yourself first
before you think your the boss.
you know nothing.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Your spool is unraveling
pretty soon it will be gone.
when it is, take all that you have learned
and think of all the mistakes you made for fun.
i am sure it will amount to a third degree burn.
In which the scars will never fade.
BY then all the people you have hurt
will make it into your inconsiderate mind
everyday..a torturous pay for your services.
Manipulative con,
take a walk
so far away, your name
will be only muttered in a crows caw ..
Manipulative con,
this battle was lost
you had him for a little while
now all hope for you is gone.
Manipulative con, from one woman
well to a girl
you did a swell job of ruining how
a lot of men, see the women in this world..
Do us a favor, keep your mouth shut
do us a favor, there is plenty of tools
so take a look for someone as vain as you..
then you know, their mind is an open canvas brand new.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
your game is at its demise.
there is no where left to run.
7/7/10
C.MacGinnis
Managing your thoughts
into believing she's true.
she contradicts herself
into feel brand new.
she will make sure you never forget her name
by making known to you
what she will never change.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
You have a skill in your performance
always putting on a show
never sure who is watching
but it only matters if they are
willing to give you more.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Going around like a tornado
always changing your image
always skipping your path
always destroying everyone
who wasn't fit to pass.
your tests.
Image is everything
next to material
what would it take for
her to be real?
a drastic occurrence
a slap in the face
she needs to decide
what her fangs want to taste.
it's like looking into
the evil eyes of Medusa
make haste. make haste.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Your an old spool of thread
ready to eradicate
wrapped around yourself
with no one left to cripple
no more trades with the devil.
nothing left to possess..
leaving nothing simple.
until then, in case your hungry
the name brand baby food is on aisle 4.
bring a name brand bib
in case you dribble all over the floor.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Take what you think you have accomplished
with all of these suppressed people
take all this excitement
cast it out of your thick pampered head.
shoot it until it's dead.
Making a bad image
for women alike
making us look like
a poison in the night
your game is so clear
and your mind is so lost.
find yourself first
before you think your the boss.
you know nothing.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
Your spool is unraveling
pretty soon it will be gone.
when it is, take all that you have learned
and think of all the mistakes you made for fun.
i am sure it will amount to a third degree burn.
In which the scars will never fade.
BY then all the people you have hurt
will make it into your inconsiderate mind
everyday..a torturous pay for your services.
Manipulative con,
take a walk
so far away, your name
will be only muttered in a crows caw ..
Manipulative con,
this battle was lost
you had him for a little while
now all hope for you is gone.
Manipulative con, from one woman
well to a girl
you did a swell job of ruining how
a lot of men, see the women in this world..
Do us a favor, keep your mouth shut
do us a favor, there is plenty of tools
so take a look for someone as vain as you..
then you know, their mind is an open canvas brand new.
Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
your game is at its demise.
there is no where left to run.
7/7/10
C.MacGinnis
Friday, July 2, 2010
For the World's Sake.
For the World's Sake.
Cascading into my mind
pouring down outside
to stop the evil of time
for a moment
would be divine.
Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.
A possibility arises
to see through daily devises
to see through the moments that hide us
and become who we always we're.
appreciating the universe
and all its worth.
Pounding endlessly
or though it seems
drowning out all that is
untrue, and mean
hitting the scorching earth
creating some steam.
all of us working against each other,
when we should be like the rain
and work as a team.
One drop alone,
will get no where.
no one cares.
add a million to that one,
and it creates pools, and puddles
reflecting the sun..
food for greenery.
keeping this worlds vegetation growing on.
that raindrop couldn't have done it alone.
Take the initiative, find out who your neighbor is
work as a whole human race
desire to be alone is making our species a disgrace
so push out that taste
reveal your saddened face
and start working together
in this lifetimes pace.
For the world's sake.
Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.
For the world's sake.
make this ride worth the wake.
7/2/10
C.MacGinnis
Cascading into my mind
pouring down outside
to stop the evil of time
for a moment
would be divine.
Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.
A possibility arises
to see through daily devises
to see through the moments that hide us
and become who we always we're.
appreciating the universe
and all its worth.
Pounding endlessly
or though it seems
drowning out all that is
untrue, and mean
hitting the scorching earth
creating some steam.
all of us working against each other,
when we should be like the rain
and work as a team.
One drop alone,
will get no where.
no one cares.
add a million to that one,
and it creates pools, and puddles
reflecting the sun..
food for greenery.
keeping this worlds vegetation growing on.
that raindrop couldn't have done it alone.
Take the initiative, find out who your neighbor is
work as a whole human race
desire to be alone is making our species a disgrace
so push out that taste
reveal your saddened face
and start working together
in this lifetimes pace.
For the world's sake.
Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.
For the world's sake.
make this ride worth the wake.
7/2/10
C.MacGinnis
Thursday, June 17, 2010
i am not to fear.
here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong
i walk this path
waiting for something
i walk this road
my heart beat is pumping
tired of putting everything i am
into something that ends up
falling through the cracks of my hands.
i see the pain your mind inflicts
i see the time you waste on this.
i see that you don't see who i am
or who i'd be in the world you seek.
i have tried my entire life
i have tried for all things
i felt we're right
i have been pushed aside
too many times
so here i sit
the idea is clear
your smoking it up
and it isn't me you should fear.
find me a heart ache
and ill know it well.
you won't let me help you
pull you out of this hell.
here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong.
-C.MacGinnis
6/17/10
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong
i walk this path
waiting for something
i walk this road
my heart beat is pumping
tired of putting everything i am
into something that ends up
falling through the cracks of my hands.
i see the pain your mind inflicts
i see the time you waste on this.
i see that you don't see who i am
or who i'd be in the world you seek.
i have tried my entire life
i have tried for all things
i felt we're right
i have been pushed aside
too many times
so here i sit
the idea is clear
your smoking it up
and it isn't me you should fear.
find me a heart ache
and ill know it well.
you won't let me help you
pull you out of this hell.
here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong.
-C.MacGinnis
6/17/10
Friday, June 4, 2010
Light as a Feather
Light as a Feather
Cascade into me
show me all that you know
grasp my body tight
keep me impervious
through the dead of
night
Concentrate my soul
only rays of purity
the verity of who we used to be
the fact of who we're meant to be.
maybe we're meant to be together.
for our sanity.
Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.
Irrevocable before i met you
unsure of what to do
Now you have fallen in with me
into the land we have brought light to.
Let's reside here blissfully
never worried about worldly things
never wondering what each other thinks
only realizing having one another
is a dive into bona fide ecstasy.
Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.
6/4/10
C.MacGinnis
Cascade into me
show me all that you know
grasp my body tight
keep me impervious
through the dead of
night
Concentrate my soul
only rays of purity
the verity of who we used to be
the fact of who we're meant to be.
maybe we're meant to be together.
for our sanity.
Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.
Irrevocable before i met you
unsure of what to do
Now you have fallen in with me
into the land we have brought light to.
Let's reside here blissfully
never worried about worldly things
never wondering what each other thinks
only realizing having one another
is a dive into bona fide ecstasy.
Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.
6/4/10
C.MacGinnis
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Vagrant
I don't want to be a vagrant
tired of people considering me a burden.
always the first to answer when you call
always the last to get an answer, when i call.
resorted to small self indulgences
resorted to hopping this privacy fence
guarding life's pleasures
wash and dry my soul
like a pair of dirty pants.
a lot of times
i feel alone in this world
with nothing to count on.
constantly being let down
by people i relied on.
I am afraid of being alone
tired of feeling this way
venture into the sun
into another day
finding the words to say
to describe this hurt
this feeling of neglect
this tiring world is wrecked
i am a nuisance,
feeling like a vagrant
hoping things turn around
praying life's battles turn upside down
wishing a few occurrences in my life
would work out
for my benefit
trying harder is what i must do
trying hard is the only way to prove
to anyone, i am no beggar
i am not your burden
i am not your obligation
i am a human being, living with you in this saddened nation
finding my life going in a strange direction
waiting for karma rotation
i deserve a chance at this life
i need to try harder
keep my head up, and lock in my sights.
i know i shine, and i refuse to allow my own mind
to dim my own light.
I don't want to be a vagrant
tired of people considering me a burden.
I will fight these curses
and when its all over
these memories of hard times
will be sacred.
5/12/10
C.MacGinnis
tired of people considering me a burden.
always the first to answer when you call
always the last to get an answer, when i call.
resorted to small self indulgences
resorted to hopping this privacy fence
guarding life's pleasures
wash and dry my soul
like a pair of dirty pants.
a lot of times
i feel alone in this world
with nothing to count on.
constantly being let down
by people i relied on.
I am afraid of being alone
tired of feeling this way
venture into the sun
into another day
finding the words to say
to describe this hurt
this feeling of neglect
this tiring world is wrecked
i am a nuisance,
feeling like a vagrant
hoping things turn around
praying life's battles turn upside down
wishing a few occurrences in my life
would work out
for my benefit
trying harder is what i must do
trying hard is the only way to prove
to anyone, i am no beggar
i am not your burden
i am not your obligation
i am a human being, living with you in this saddened nation
finding my life going in a strange direction
waiting for karma rotation
i deserve a chance at this life
i need to try harder
keep my head up, and lock in my sights.
i know i shine, and i refuse to allow my own mind
to dim my own light.
I don't want to be a vagrant
tired of people considering me a burden.
I will fight these curses
and when its all over
these memories of hard times
will be sacred.
5/12/10
C.MacGinnis
The Search
The Search
Not sure anymore, uncertain of my choices
behind each closed door
Find me lying on the floor
seeking answers in the grains of dirt
surrounding my head, my back is sore.
Which way do i wander
Where do i lay my troubled mind
to slumber?
Reached a point of counting numbers,
until the end of time, for mankind
maybe then i will find the answers,
i long to intertwine with my life.
Figuring out if i am worth your time, his time, anyones time.
No one can fight life's battles alone
I have been trying to for so long, and i'm tired.
i try to escape my thoughts with the only solace i have anymore
in the debths of my writing and songs.
Life is trying to finish me off, end this suffering,
similar to prey thats been hunted,
tell me i can't and i will,
traveling through life
searching endlessly for
something thats real.
something to feel.
-C.MacGinnis
5/12/10
Not sure anymore, uncertain of my choices
behind each closed door
Find me lying on the floor
seeking answers in the grains of dirt
surrounding my head, my back is sore.
Which way do i wander
Where do i lay my troubled mind
to slumber?
Reached a point of counting numbers,
until the end of time, for mankind
maybe then i will find the answers,
i long to intertwine with my life.
Figuring out if i am worth your time, his time, anyones time.
No one can fight life's battles alone
I have been trying to for so long, and i'm tired.
i try to escape my thoughts with the only solace i have anymore
in the debths of my writing and songs.
Life is trying to finish me off, end this suffering,
similar to prey thats been hunted,
tell me i can't and i will,
traveling through life
searching endlessly for
something thats real.
something to feel.
-C.MacGinnis
5/12/10
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Your Shine is Bright
Your Shine is Bright
I see the man behind the pain
I see what you came to be
I see the torture you endured
at a timely pace you matured
your life has burned you
and it hurt like hell
yet you continue working your way
down your unpaved trail.
you let it shove you harder and harder
into a spiral of uncontrollable sadness
and yet you brought yourself up over this trouble
released yourself from the madness
i see who you are
the beauty you possess
i see the man who has broken free
that look suits you best.
your eyes tell a story
when your mouth doesn't want to
your humor finds me on the floor
smothered in laughter
your wild ideas and thoughts of the future
have a beauty in their own
hours could pass by listening to you
and those hours would go by
un-missed and unknown.
indescribable feelings you conjured inside me
helped me see its okay to just be me
inspired me to write this down
sing it loud, but don't be too proud.
your a beautiful person
your light shines brighter than the sun
your eyes are brighter than the moon
and your suffered spirits bindings
are finally coming undone.
ripped free from the grip
that held you so tight
suffocating you like a python in the night
there is no time
they want to hold you back
to inch closer to dim your light
not seeing the strength you have
in their sight.
you hold the potential,
pride, and will
to be the man i see
behind life's attempt
at an emotional kill.
you my dear friend
are a beautiful person
with your light as bright as the sun
your eyes as bright as the moon
with your spirits suffocating bindings
surely coming undone,
if i can tell you anything
pass anything along
my only piece i give to you
never dim that light for anyone.
4/30/10
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Baby Jane
Baby Jane
Tamara Dougherty i love you.
Hello baby girl
with your slanted tired eyes
you just took a journey
no one remembers in their life
Hi there sweet newborn
knowing nothing more
than your mothers warmth.
and voice.
A shell of innocence
with your inability
to be corrupted
i love you baby girl
already.
You are here now,
with this world against you
but you will be a strong one
from the folks who will raise you
your beauty will flow over
and your love will be true
your loyalties will follow
shortly behind your Aries attitude.
I can't wait to meet you little one
i can't wait to see you and your mom and pops.
together, at-last.
A journey that took a while,
that you won't remember
but we will all keep in our hearts
and grow with you, into the future
keeping you safe.
welcome to this world.
we we're all ready to see you gorgeous face.
3/23/10
-C.MacGinnis
Dedicated To: baby Jane<3
Tamara Dougherty i love you.
Hello baby girl
with your slanted tired eyes
you just took a journey
no one remembers in their life
Hi there sweet newborn
knowing nothing more
than your mothers warmth.
and voice.
A shell of innocence
with your inability
to be corrupted
i love you baby girl
already.
You are here now,
with this world against you
but you will be a strong one
from the folks who will raise you
your beauty will flow over
and your love will be true
your loyalties will follow
shortly behind your Aries attitude.
I can't wait to meet you little one
i can't wait to see you and your mom and pops.
together, at-last.
A journey that took a while,
that you won't remember
but we will all keep in our hearts
and grow with you, into the future
keeping you safe.
welcome to this world.
we we're all ready to see you gorgeous face.
3/23/10
-C.MacGinnis
Dedicated To: baby Jane<3
Monday, March 22, 2010
A verse i search
A verse I search
Hypnotize this anxious tired mind, find me asleep in a corner of time, left with no one to listen to my cry, founded my solace on a dark hazy night, right in the thought, wrong in the crime, fought for my justice, leaving everyone behind. Asleep in the sunshine, awake in the night, i feel this world here doesn't fit me quite right...reach for a hand, alone in near sight, caressing my arm, tensing up for whats right..no wonder this world can't seem to work right,no wonder these peoples live their lives in fright, fright of the worries of life's wondrous battles, worried of people, and small things that don't ever matter, worried of what he thinks or she thinks of you, when all that really matters is the knowledge you use...constantly worried of your past and your senses, you never see past the wounded fences, easy you say, easy you think, how about i thought there was more, there than i thought you would think...find me some substance to take me away, from these games, that make me tired to t hink that you take time to play..i am not done being that woman who knows where she stands, i am kicking you over, with a blindfold not using my hands. Good bye is a sweet sorrow we all must endure, but the way you did me like this, is a disease you inflicted i will never get cured. Loyal to all, is my demeanor, being your fool is far from my agenda, find me a option of forgetting your name, and that's the verse I'll sing again and again.
-C.MacGinnis
3/23/10
Drowned this friendship.
My eyes saw it all
tears needed to fall
keep your fake friendship far.
too many scars.
The go to girl
the one who has what you need
for the time being
the one who has a heart
of giving..
take advantage of me,
i let you do it for a while
then i realized your as hopeless
as a small child
who depends on someone to hold
their hand crossing the road..
except the cross is 100 miles.
i refuse to be your burden
refuse to let you make a fool of me
i refuse to let you trap me with your needs
breaking these ropes
screw you, i am free of your fake friendship.
you never provided care, or help for me.
Ill bury it once and for all
and when you realize what you just lost
don't come crawling back to me
i am no longer your go-to girl
i am no longer your mat to walk all over
i am no longer a friend to call your own
took advantage of my consideration
watch me hold this under
watch this friendship drown by my hands..
and your actions.
3/22/10
My eyes saw it all
tears needed to fall
keep your fake friendship far.
too many scars.
The go to girl
the one who has what you need
for the time being
the one who has a heart
of giving..
take advantage of me,
i let you do it for a while
then i realized your as hopeless
as a small child
who depends on someone to hold
their hand crossing the road..
except the cross is 100 miles.
i refuse to be your burden
refuse to let you make a fool of me
i refuse to let you trap me with your needs
breaking these ropes
screw you, i am free of your fake friendship.
you never provided care, or help for me.
Ill bury it once and for all
and when you realize what you just lost
don't come crawling back to me
i am no longer your go-to girl
i am no longer your mat to walk all over
i am no longer a friend to call your own
took advantage of my consideration
watch me hold this under
watch this friendship drown by my hands..
and your actions.
3/22/10
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Big Oak Tree in the Middle of Town
Big Oak Tree in the Middle of Town
Big oak tree in the middle of town
i wonder how long you've been around
your roots morphed into
what looks like a
large solid fist hitting the ground.
You've been around for years
seen more than we can imagine
always standing strong
never making a sound
bound in one spot.
Silent watcher
i see you standing there
just as the generations before me
over looked your beauty
your wisdom
your silent suffer.
Big oak tree in the middle of town
i wonder how long you've been around
your roots morphed into
what looks like a
large solid fist hitting the ground.
Tired of what you hear in this world..
sick of the horrible sounds.
Here you will stand big tree
until the corrupted human race
over looks you
and cuts you down..
then you will get to make your noise
the sad song of an ancient tree
hitting the ground..
for a reason not profound.
3/9/10
C-MacGinnis
Big oak tree in the middle of town
i wonder how long you've been around
your roots morphed into
what looks like a
large solid fist hitting the ground.
You've been around for years
seen more than we can imagine
always standing strong
never making a sound
bound in one spot.
Silent watcher
i see you standing there
just as the generations before me
over looked your beauty
your wisdom
your silent suffer.
Big oak tree in the middle of town
i wonder how long you've been around
your roots morphed into
what looks like a
large solid fist hitting the ground.
Tired of what you hear in this world..
sick of the horrible sounds.
Here you will stand big tree
until the corrupted human race
over looks you
and cuts you down..
then you will get to make your noise
the sad song of an ancient tree
hitting the ground..
for a reason not profound.
3/9/10
C-MacGinnis
Sunday, February 14, 2010
On the Run
On the Run
There was a young boy
who was on the run
for he had done sumthin'
really bad
with his daddy's gun
he took flight
into the sun..
for the deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
Now this boy knew
if he got caught
his life was over
no more fun
the life he'd see
would be blocked by bars
for the deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
now this young man
stopped for the night
tryin' to get some shut-eye
the memories of this deed he did
haunted his conscience
he dozed off for a minute or two
when up walked a man in blue
he said son, what is it that ya do?
This boy woke up
heart jumped
he knew..
so he turned his car on real fast
and he ran from this man in blue
just for fun..
he couldn't get caught
because of the horrible deed
he'd done
with his daddy's gun.
Identity forgotten
not longer significant
this boy turned quickly
into a man
There was a man
who was on the run
for he had done sumthin'
really bad
with his daddy's gun
disappeared with out a trail
for living out his life
he would not fail.
he will never be caught
for this deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
2/14/10
There was a young boy
who was on the run
for he had done sumthin'
really bad
with his daddy's gun
he took flight
into the sun..
for the deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
Now this boy knew
if he got caught
his life was over
no more fun
the life he'd see
would be blocked by bars
for the deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
now this young man
stopped for the night
tryin' to get some shut-eye
the memories of this deed he did
haunted his conscience
he dozed off for a minute or two
when up walked a man in blue
he said son, what is it that ya do?
This boy woke up
heart jumped
he knew..
so he turned his car on real fast
and he ran from this man in blue
just for fun..
he couldn't get caught
because of the horrible deed
he'd done
with his daddy's gun.
Identity forgotten
not longer significant
this boy turned quickly
into a man
There was a man
who was on the run
for he had done sumthin'
really bad
with his daddy's gun
disappeared with out a trail
for living out his life
he would not fail.
he will never be caught
for this deed he did
with his daddy's gun.
2/14/10
Friday, February 12, 2010
Loneliness Murdered my Consideration
Loneliness Murdered my Consideration
Consideration is the culprit
a demon in itself
starts off nice and pretty
then forces you to live
in your self made hell.
Always someones scape goat
never asking questions
always the one opening eyes
but never mentioned.
She always let's it go.
Loneliness is a murderer
no other choice
everyone keeps hurting her.
Loneliness murders consideration
and i am ready to start this calculation.
Ready for the blood fest of these emotions.
Over being the fool behind this manipulation..
all i can do is MAKE people loathe me.
for my own protection.
So where-ever you are, whatever you feel
where-ever your going, whatever you think is real.
is tired on my mind,
I am not considering another thing you do, any other time.
To me now, consideration is a crime, and loneliness is bright.
So the path ill continue, what seems to be right.
I'll walk this shallow road, into the unforgiving darkness of night.
2/12/10
C.MacGinnis
Consideration is the culprit
a demon in itself
starts off nice and pretty
then forces you to live
in your self made hell.
Always someones scape goat
never asking questions
always the one opening eyes
but never mentioned.
She always let's it go.
Loneliness is a murderer
no other choice
everyone keeps hurting her.
Loneliness murders consideration
and i am ready to start this calculation.
Ready for the blood fest of these emotions.
Over being the fool behind this manipulation..
all i can do is MAKE people loathe me.
for my own protection.
So where-ever you are, whatever you feel
where-ever your going, whatever you think is real.
is tired on my mind,
I am not considering another thing you do, any other time.
To me now, consideration is a crime, and loneliness is bright.
So the path ill continue, what seems to be right.
I'll walk this shallow road, into the unforgiving darkness of night.
2/12/10
C.MacGinnis
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
When the Timing is Right
When the Timing is Right
She has a peculiar demeanor
following her dreams
rolling through life's needed tasks
knowing there is more to be.
She keeps up with the stitches
holding it together
its always raining somewhere
she keeps her umbrella.
She is used to the daily hindrance
the daily grime
she will find her self
free, just give her some time.
She is always facing troubles
one thing, turns into a million
its all in her head
these thoughts will never
get her where she needs to be instead.
Step foot onto this world
with a lovely expedition in mind
searching for her chance
her window
to gain the only thing that matters
life experience, age old with no regrets
through-out her life's time.
She has a eagar demeanor
ready for this life
it will just take her some time
to spread her wings
and take flight.
She will soar all day, and
watch over the world at night.
When the timing is right.
2/8/10
C.MacGinnis
She has a peculiar demeanor
following her dreams
rolling through life's needed tasks
knowing there is more to be.
She keeps up with the stitches
holding it together
its always raining somewhere
she keeps her umbrella.
She is used to the daily hindrance
the daily grime
she will find her self
free, just give her some time.
She is always facing troubles
one thing, turns into a million
its all in her head
these thoughts will never
get her where she needs to be instead.
Step foot onto this world
with a lovely expedition in mind
searching for her chance
her window
to gain the only thing that matters
life experience, age old with no regrets
through-out her life's time.
She has a eagar demeanor
ready for this life
it will just take her some time
to spread her wings
and take flight.
She will soar all day, and
watch over the world at night.
When the timing is right.
2/8/10
C.MacGinnis
Monday, February 8, 2010
Unknowingly kind, this friend of mine
Unknowingly kind, this friend of mine
2/7/10
Her eyes said it all,
a misty feature, at the
quick glance
of a memory recalled
turned this angst
into ambition
has to live her life
fulfilling a unfulfilled mission
throwing herself into her mind
creativity in full force
there is no other way
closes her eyes
sings a lullaby
enough to help you realize
some things
enough emotion to
make you cry
seeing her passion
fill this night
will keep my inspiriation
going down the path
that seems to be right.
She never stops trying
holding herself low
keeping her mind open
to all that she knows.
holding her love
speaking her words
singing her song
your life relates to the verse
could change this life
from what may seem to be a curse
into a beautiful, unpredictable universe.
she changes her mind
but never her spirit
her passion is in her music
listen deeper
you will hear it.
Her eyes said it all,
a misty feature, at the
quick glance
of a memory recalled
Her song will remind you of a time
when everything was fine
she will sing for you one time
while her passion radiates from her
she shared,
now some of the passion
is mine to find.
unknowingly kind
this friend of mine.
2/7/10
c.MacGinnis
2/7/10
Her eyes said it all,
a misty feature, at the
quick glance
of a memory recalled
turned this angst
into ambition
has to live her life
fulfilling a unfulfilled mission
throwing herself into her mind
creativity in full force
there is no other way
closes her eyes
sings a lullaby
enough to help you realize
some things
enough emotion to
make you cry
seeing her passion
fill this night
will keep my inspiriation
going down the path
that seems to be right.
She never stops trying
holding herself low
keeping her mind open
to all that she knows.
holding her love
speaking her words
singing her song
your life relates to the verse
could change this life
from what may seem to be a curse
into a beautiful, unpredictable universe.
she changes her mind
but never her spirit
her passion is in her music
listen deeper
you will hear it.
Her eyes said it all,
a misty feature, at the
quick glance
of a memory recalled
Her song will remind you of a time
when everything was fine
she will sing for you one time
while her passion radiates from her
she shared,
now some of the passion
is mine to find.
unknowingly kind
this friend of mine.
2/7/10
c.MacGinnis
Monday, February 1, 2010
Could Be Worse
Could Be Worse
2-1-10
Here i sit,
independent no one to count on,
no one to hold onto.
Here i sit
living out the things i never wanted to be
But here i sit free nation,
with freedom of speech.
Roof over my head,
shoe's on my feet,
food to eat,
friends and family
who will always love me.
I could complain about the little things..
But i have more than some could dream..
Keep my head above the water,
to avoid the drowning,
run out of air.
Keep my eye's open to the things i am given.
Keep my ears listening for the love and attention,
I have lived my entire life over looking,
and missing.
My life could be worse,
in this unforgiving universe.
Remembering this could save my mind,
staying positive will save me in my life.
C.MacGinnis
2-1-10
Here i sit,
independent no one to count on,
no one to hold onto.
Here i sit
living out the things i never wanted to be
But here i sit free nation,
with freedom of speech.
Roof over my head,
shoe's on my feet,
food to eat,
friends and family
who will always love me.
I could complain about the little things..
But i have more than some could dream..
Keep my head above the water,
to avoid the drowning,
run out of air.
Keep my eye's open to the things i am given.
Keep my ears listening for the love and attention,
I have lived my entire life over looking,
and missing.
My life could be worse,
in this unforgiving universe.
Remembering this could save my mind,
staying positive will save me in my life.
C.MacGinnis
My Love Grows
My Love Grows
2-1-10
The world spins in a strange rotation
the life i live is suffocating.
The greenery will grow,
no hesitation
growing up is broken
in this generation.
The wind will blow in every season,
my love will grow with out explanation or reason.
Love will find me least expecting,
finding my love who won't forget me.
This life i live is temporary.
When I'm gone the world will continue spinning.
The grass will grow over my grave stone,
but mark my words,
my name will not go unknown,
As i said,the world spins in a strange rotation
this i life i live is suffocating
with the love i share
comes a relieving breath of fresh air
with the love i am given
comes a path
undiscovered
and not forbidden
not over done
the love i give to someone else will be passed,
for many years to come.
C. MacGinnis
2-1-10
The world spins in a strange rotation
the life i live is suffocating.
The greenery will grow,
no hesitation
growing up is broken
in this generation.
The wind will blow in every season,
my love will grow with out explanation or reason.
Love will find me least expecting,
finding my love who won't forget me.
This life i live is temporary.
When I'm gone the world will continue spinning.
The grass will grow over my grave stone,
but mark my words,
my name will not go unknown,
As i said,the world spins in a strange rotation
this i life i live is suffocating
with the love i share
comes a relieving breath of fresh air
with the love i am given
comes a path
undiscovered
and not forbidden
not over done
the love i give to someone else will be passed,
for many years to come.
C. MacGinnis
How I Want To Be
How I Want To Be
1/20/10
My body stands alone, my legs locked,
my arms wrapped around me as a means of comfort,
my eyes, burning, misting,looking wildly around,
my heart pounding
my mouth ready to talk
but unable to form words, sentences, or any sound.
My skin feels flushed,
red coming through my cheeks,
my hands are shaking and so are my legs...
I scope you out with my wild eyes,
up and down, side to side,
I see what i want to see,
you make me feel how i want to be.
-C. MacGinnis
1/20/10
My body stands alone, my legs locked,
my arms wrapped around me as a means of comfort,
my eyes, burning, misting,looking wildly around,
my heart pounding
my mouth ready to talk
but unable to form words, sentences, or any sound.
My skin feels flushed,
red coming through my cheeks,
my hands are shaking and so are my legs...
I scope you out with my wild eyes,
up and down, side to side,
I see what i want to see,
you make me feel how i want to be.
-C. MacGinnis
Memory
Memory
1/14/10
A Re-occurring memory
out side of the walls i have built in my mind
fighting desperately to forget such hard times
Left with a pen and some paper
to spill my thoughts with some what of a rhyme.
Although a memory can be painful,
in a way it can be kind.
If only you could travel across generations of time.
Always searching for an answer,
you seem to search forever,
in hopes that you will find what you're looking for.
I hope one day this hard memory
will find me my new door to be opened,
i hope one day this hard memory,
will make me a better woman
with out words being spoken or written.
-C MacGinnis
1/14/10
A Re-occurring memory
out side of the walls i have built in my mind
fighting desperately to forget such hard times
Left with a pen and some paper
to spill my thoughts with some what of a rhyme.
Although a memory can be painful,
in a way it can be kind.
If only you could travel across generations of time.
Always searching for an answer,
you seem to search forever,
in hopes that you will find what you're looking for.
I hope one day this hard memory
will find me my new door to be opened,
i hope one day this hard memory,
will make me a better woman
with out words being spoken or written.
-C MacGinnis
My Dear Friend
My Dear Friend.
1/14/10
Please dear friend rely upon my energy
see past the person you used to be
wasting all that time being angry
losing the days that pass us by
can't seem to get it right.
Open up your eyes
regain your sight dear friend,
although this world is ugly,
you my dear friend are beautiful.
Don't give up on your dreams now,
I'll help you fight.
Let me catch you when you feel defeated.
One day, unknown when,
I'll need you there my dear friend,
your hand I'll ask a lend,
your face will warm my heart,
as i hope mine does for you,
knowing someone is there,
in this dangerous world,
knowing we're not alone,
you being there for me will never leave me,
So when i ask you to rely upon our kindred energy
allow your self to believe,
i will be strong for you dear friend,
and you be strong for me.
-C. MacGinnis
1/14/10
Please dear friend rely upon my energy
see past the person you used to be
wasting all that time being angry
losing the days that pass us by
can't seem to get it right.
Open up your eyes
regain your sight dear friend,
although this world is ugly,
you my dear friend are beautiful.
Don't give up on your dreams now,
I'll help you fight.
Let me catch you when you feel defeated.
One day, unknown when,
I'll need you there my dear friend,
your hand I'll ask a lend,
your face will warm my heart,
as i hope mine does for you,
knowing someone is there,
in this dangerous world,
knowing we're not alone,
you being there for me will never leave me,
So when i ask you to rely upon our kindred energy
allow your self to believe,
i will be strong for you dear friend,
and you be strong for me.
-C. MacGinnis
For Me
For Me
1/2/10
Invest all my energy all my time,
sifting through the autumn covered memories in my lost and frozen mind.
Working day to day, depending biweekly on my pay,
searching desperately for another way to live this life.
Following my dreams,
shouldn't be a task,
going west of anywhere is an experience no questions asked.
Always a story about the phrase " One day I'll..."
then the realization of responsibilities stack tall
that ambition " One day I'll..."
turns into " i always wanted to.."
and then it never happens at all.
So here i am holding all my dreams,
investing all my time,
wasting my talents for a unsatisfactory day to day rhyme.
Escaping is my goal,
my need of all needs,
existing among fellow human beings
just ordinarily living their lives,
some stuck in past times.
Not me,
I'll save myself escape from the black hole i have dug to hell.
Reach for the top,
dig your way up,
I'll find my way,
I'll get where i need to be,
in this, i need to invest MY time,
MY love, dreams, destiny,
for no one, but for me.
-C. MacGinnis
1/2/10
Invest all my energy all my time,
sifting through the autumn covered memories in my lost and frozen mind.
Working day to day, depending biweekly on my pay,
searching desperately for another way to live this life.
Following my dreams,
shouldn't be a task,
going west of anywhere is an experience no questions asked.
Always a story about the phrase " One day I'll..."
then the realization of responsibilities stack tall
that ambition " One day I'll..."
turns into " i always wanted to.."
and then it never happens at all.
So here i am holding all my dreams,
investing all my time,
wasting my talents for a unsatisfactory day to day rhyme.
Escaping is my goal,
my need of all needs,
existing among fellow human beings
just ordinarily living their lives,
some stuck in past times.
Not me,
I'll save myself escape from the black hole i have dug to hell.
Reach for the top,
dig your way up,
I'll find my way,
I'll get where i need to be,
in this, i need to invest MY time,
MY love, dreams, destiny,
for no one, but for me.
-C. MacGinnis
My Amber eyes
My Amber eyes
12-31-09
Find me a fresh breath,
before the ultimatum of death,
blue cheeks and amber eyes
find me cold,
I'll wear it as a disguise.
Open the blinds let the sun rise,
in this dark time,
let the sun set in these amber eyes,
and warm my frozen suffocated disguise with a temporary lie.
Left cold with out a chance to say good bye,
just turn away from my wet amber eyes.
-C. MacGinnis
12-31-09
Find me a fresh breath,
before the ultimatum of death,
blue cheeks and amber eyes
find me cold,
I'll wear it as a disguise.
Open the blinds let the sun rise,
in this dark time,
let the sun set in these amber eyes,
and warm my frozen suffocated disguise with a temporary lie.
Left cold with out a chance to say good bye,
just turn away from my wet amber eyes.
-C. MacGinnis
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Making this T-shirt a Tank top
Making this T-shirt a Tank top
1/19/10
I can't handle this....
think its okay to play mind games with me.....
to take my heart,
tear it up,
and give me back the pieces
with out all the parts,
and then the nerve......
THE NERVE.....
to try and lure me in again..
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so ill rip off my sleeves for protection...
ill make this t-shirt a tank top..
Request me over for the evening
not going to happen
how could you even forget
how this ended.
You tell me its my fault,
my decision.
tell me your ready for me now
with out a warning.
so tired of your games.
My sleeve is ripped
my heart is hidden
you built this wall
passing it is forbidden
i let you in once
you destroyed the interior
to let you in again
would make me ignorant,
and you superior.
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so i ripped off my sleeves for protection...
my heart is no longer for you
it can't hold any more affection
i am lucky its still beating.
continue your silly path
of misleading
you will end up alone
and internally bleeding.
C. MacGinnis
1/19/10
I can't handle this....
think its okay to play mind games with me.....
to take my heart,
tear it up,
and give me back the pieces
with out all the parts,
and then the nerve......
THE NERVE.....
to try and lure me in again..
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so ill rip off my sleeves for protection...
ill make this t-shirt a tank top..
Request me over for the evening
not going to happen
how could you even forget
how this ended.
You tell me its my fault,
my decision.
tell me your ready for me now
with out a warning.
so tired of your games.
My sleeve is ripped
my heart is hidden
you built this wall
passing it is forbidden
i let you in once
you destroyed the interior
to let you in again
would make me ignorant,
and you superior.
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so i ripped off my sleeves for protection...
my heart is no longer for you
it can't hold any more affection
i am lucky its still beating.
continue your silly path
of misleading
you will end up alone
and internally bleeding.
C. MacGinnis
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Secret Lover
Secret Lover
1/16/10
Hello secret lover
can i have a moment of your time
tell you about some of the thoughts
speeding through my mind.
secret lover, you don't even know how i feel
when your hands move across my body
the flame is hot, and real.
secret lover, tell me this
the way i move my hips
does it leave an impression
can you taste me
on your lips?
can't tell a soul
afraid of the words they would choose
afraid of the rumors, that create deep lacerations
maybe even a dark deep bruise,
on top of your other scars.
never past the past
never let it scratch
the surface of the present,
the present
will never exist
as the feelings of the past
will dilute your future
a constant brain racking
you just can't seem to resist.
secret lover
here i sit
wondering why i couldn't be it.
keeping my mouth shut
opening up my heart
when i know better
but ill keep trying
to find the person
who is supposed to be with me
when i am old and dieing
may not be you secret lover
but i will always keep your secret
in my heart
i found myself with you secret lover,
a new journey we have discovered.
i will travel alone
to keep the secret safe.
maybe we will meet
secretly another day.
-Crystal MacGinnis
1/16/10
Hello secret lover
can i have a moment of your time
tell you about some of the thoughts
speeding through my mind.
secret lover, you don't even know how i feel
when your hands move across my body
the flame is hot, and real.
secret lover, tell me this
the way i move my hips
does it leave an impression
can you taste me
on your lips?
can't tell a soul
afraid of the words they would choose
afraid of the rumors, that create deep lacerations
maybe even a dark deep bruise,
on top of your other scars.
never past the past
never let it scratch
the surface of the present,
the present
will never exist
as the feelings of the past
will dilute your future
a constant brain racking
you just can't seem to resist.
secret lover
here i sit
wondering why i couldn't be it.
keeping my mouth shut
opening up my heart
when i know better
but ill keep trying
to find the person
who is supposed to be with me
when i am old and dieing
may not be you secret lover
but i will always keep your secret
in my heart
i found myself with you secret lover,
a new journey we have discovered.
i will travel alone
to keep the secret safe.
maybe we will meet
secretly another day.
-Crystal MacGinnis
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