i am not to fear.

here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong

i walk this path
waiting for something
i walk this road
my heart beat is pumping
tired of putting everything i am
into something that ends up
falling through the cracks of my hands.

i see the pain your mind inflicts
i see the time you waste on this.
i see that you don't see who i am
or who i'd be in the world you seek.

i have tried my entire life
i have tried for all things
i felt we're right
i have been pushed aside
too many times
so here i sit
the idea is clear
your smoking it up
and it isn't me you should fear.
find me a heart ache
and ill know it well.
you won't let me help you
pull you out of this hell.

here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong.

-C.MacGinnis
6/17/10