Making this T-shirt a Tank top

Making this T-shirt a Tank top
1/19/10

I can't handle this....
think its okay to play mind games with me.....
to take my heart,
tear it up,
and give me back the pieces
with out all the parts,
and then the nerve......
THE NERVE.....
to try and lure me in again..
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so ill rip off my sleeves for protection...
ill make this t-shirt a tank top..

Request me over for the evening
not going to happen
how could you even forget
how this ended.

You tell me its my fault,
my decision.
tell me your ready for me now
with out a warning.
so tired of your games.

My sleeve is ripped
my heart is hidden
you built this wall
passing it is forbidden

i let you in once
you destroyed the interior
to let you in again
would make me ignorant,
and you superior.

i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so i ripped off my sleeves for protection...
my heart is no longer for you
it can't hold any more affection
i am lucky its still beating.
continue your silly path
of misleading
you will end up alone
and internally bleeding.

C. MacGinnis

Secret Lover

Secret Lover
1/16/10

Hello secret lover
can i have a moment of your time
tell you about some of the thoughts
speeding through my mind.

secret lover, you don't even know how i feel
when your hands move across my body
the flame is hot, and real.

secret lover, tell me this
the way i move my hips
does it leave an impression
can you taste me
on your lips?

can't tell a soul
afraid of the words they would choose
afraid of the rumors, that create deep lacerations
maybe even a dark deep bruise,
on top of your other scars.

never past the past
never let it scratch
the surface of the present,
the present
will never exist
as the feelings of the past
will dilute your future
a constant brain racking
you just can't seem to resist.

secret lover
here i sit
wondering why i couldn't be it.
keeping my mouth shut
opening up my heart
when i know better
but ill keep trying
to find the person
who is supposed to be with me
when i am old and dieing
may not be you secret lover
but i will always keep your secret
in my heart
i found myself with you secret lover,
a new journey we have discovered.
i will travel alone
to keep the secret safe.
maybe we will meet
secretly another day.

-Crystal MacGinnis