locked doors

locked doors.

every choice i made
every single day
every way
i have to pay

living in the past
hating the present
afraid of the future

i never learned to listen.
always ripping open my
freshly dug sutures.

dealing with the consequences
of my actions
left alone
in an orderly fashion

overwhelmed with my decisions
left with nothing more
losing myself each time
i close and lock another door.

everything i touch
crumbles into ruins
everything i love
ends before i knew it.

I came into this world alone
I walk this world alone
I'll leave this world alone.

brain on my shoulders
heart on my sleeve
taking each step
towards a newer me.

working for myself
looking for an answer
trying to make it in this world
corruption spreads like cancer.

falling, grabbing, leaving
gasping
reaching
for a unknown source
opening a new door
feet planted on the floor.

every choice i make
every single day
every way
reflecting new ways.
learning from my mistakes.
10/9/08