Relinquish Me

Relinquish me
let me go..
run fast
be like all the others
that can't administer me
no no no flee.
Its as routine
as the breaths
I take to breathe.

Anyone can write a love song
everyone can sing along
however love isn't what I want to be singing
its the happiness that follows that  I 've been missing.
Its the impracticable that keeps stinging.

lonely evenings
find me screaming
for anyone, anything, anytime
release my conviction
from the dungeon I built
torturous thoughts
consume my blood
drain me
dry dry dry

It is commonplace giving all that I can
never satisfied with out my heart
in my hand..
go ahead drop it in the sand.
I'll scourer this earth
for a new place to land
find my space..
now I am just sick of my own face.
fade fade fade

What now?
Where can I find
whatever it is I search?
like a unattainable pot of gold
at the end of a rainbow
always wanting
always reaching
never grasping
lose lose lose
lost

Love lost, friends gone
how is it I am always so wrong
why do you take from my soul
like a buffet table in a full room
I am not your meal to consume
I am not your sanity to resume
don't pretend
leave me be
leave me be
relinquish me.
-Crystal MacGinnis
 4/21/12