Making this T-shirt a Tank top

Making this T-shirt a Tank top
1/19/10

I can't handle this....
think its okay to play mind games with me.....
to take my heart,
tear it up,
and give me back the pieces
with out all the parts,
and then the nerve......
THE NERVE.....
to try and lure me in again..
i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so ill rip off my sleeves for protection...
ill make this t-shirt a tank top..

Request me over for the evening
not going to happen
how could you even forget
how this ended.

You tell me its my fault,
my decision.
tell me your ready for me now
with out a warning.
so tired of your games.

My sleeve is ripped
my heart is hidden
you built this wall
passing it is forbidden

i let you in once
you destroyed the interior
to let you in again
would make me ignorant,
and you superior.

i am no fool..
i just wear my heart on my sleeve,
so i ripped off my sleeves for protection...
my heart is no longer for you
it can't hold any more affection
i am lucky its still beating.
continue your silly path
of misleading
you will end up alone
and internally bleeding.

C. MacGinnis

Secret Lover

Secret Lover
1/16/10

Hello secret lover
can i have a moment of your time
tell you about some of the thoughts
speeding through my mind.

secret lover, you don't even know how i feel
when your hands move across my body
the flame is hot, and real.

secret lover, tell me this
the way i move my hips
does it leave an impression
can you taste me
on your lips?

can't tell a soul
afraid of the words they would choose
afraid of the rumors, that create deep lacerations
maybe even a dark deep bruise,
on top of your other scars.

never past the past
never let it scratch
the surface of the present,
the present
will never exist
as the feelings of the past
will dilute your future
a constant brain racking
you just can't seem to resist.

secret lover
here i sit
wondering why i couldn't be it.
keeping my mouth shut
opening up my heart
when i know better
but ill keep trying
to find the person
who is supposed to be with me
when i am old and dieing
may not be you secret lover
but i will always keep your secret
in my heart
i found myself with you secret lover,
a new journey we have discovered.
i will travel alone
to keep the secret safe.
maybe we will meet
secretly another day.

-Crystal MacGinnis

For you Peace Cave.

For you Peace Cave.

Tranquil thoughts arrest my mind
finding peace is hard
in these times

this is for you Peace cave
a little rhyme

A hidden little treasure
a place for your brain
to meet new measures
rocks and jagged edges
are only a plus
to keep out the unwanted guests
to keep harmony for us.

Peace comes here,
and resides in the shadows
come sit here my friends
time is not shallow.
enjoy it.

pick up your mess,
and leave it clean for the next guest
a little rhyme for you peace cave
a little place
for us modern day hippies to escape.
a little place to run away
a little place
with a big heart
a cave of entrapped memories.
let's work together.
let's do our part
chill out
smoke weed
keep the peace
one love
it isn't too hard.
just don't get lost in the dark.


12/08/09
C Mac

I have to be me.

write what you feel

I have to be me.

Cast aside the guilt
leave it at the door
nothing is perfect
leave your expectations
on the floor

never to return again
is what I'll always say,
forever dwelling here
is a constant fear
with anchors on my feet.
i never want to stay.

fresh red eyes in the night
seek for a treasure
a hunt with no limits
no measures
need to find a light
need to obtain some fire
lifted off the ground
my mind could not be higher

Rest on your choices
and reasons to believe
cut the ropes
from your wrists,
cut the ropes
from your neck,
run far
don't be afraid
create the life you lead
be the person you'll be
get the hell out
of here
you're free.

We just have to remember that
We just have to hold on to it.
We just have to live it.
you have to be you.
and i have to be me.


12/1/09
C.MacGinnis

random thoughts

write what you feel

Random Thoughts

Ever sit alone
lost in a trance
staring at nothing
numb, with no defense?

Ever find your feelings
scattered, and afraid
racking, and holding
tightly to your brain

Ever flip through the pages
of a book
fictional but true
the fake romance
and tortured pain
is so real
a symbolic resemblance
of me and you

ever think it is foggy
and unclear
convinced by mortality
and fear
you had it all right here
i gave it all right there.
11/31/09
C. MacGinnis

Bring a Jacket

Bring a Jacket

Brisk mornings of winter
I'll pull you out of my heart
like a splinter
running around
couldn't be better
I'm free of this pain

don't forget your jacket
my chest is spread open
and its getting drafty
i have to protect my heart
so please don't attack it
I'm vulnerable right now.

Winter wraps me up
in its freezing night
time to hold on tight
this ride is up in the air
doing spins and circles
trying to show someone..

hey, you there
don't be scared
throw your arms up
and enjoy this ride..
never let them see you hide..
its cold, so bring a jacket.

Brisk mornings of winter
I'll pull you out of my brain
like a splinter
running around
couldn't be better
I'm free of this pain
-Crystal MacGinnis

11/15/09

Oxygen's Gone

Oxygen's Gone
11/9/09

I just don't know
what I'm doing anymore
rock solid walls,
staring at the floor
dig my way out

scratching the walls
searching for a door
trying to see if my life
amounts to anything more

locked in this house
screaming out loud
fighting for a chance
to be free
from this trance.

holding my breath
the water fills up
seconds to go
before your oxygen is gone

find a way out
searching for my life
I just don't know
what I'm doing anymore
can't seem to find this illusive door
stuck here kicking and screaming on the floor
waiting for my chance to escape
just waiting for my turn to get away.

-Crystal MacGinnis