Too Tightly Bound
By: Crystal MacGinnis
11/19/12

Systematically I feel like a failure
so much easier to just lay here
stop the moment of being defeated
for the moment stopped
descry the sound that is not in your ear
the sound you cannot hear
only felt can the sound be clear
I'll find it

Electrifying tunnels
Walloping wind spells
turning around
craving to be found
searching for that sound
in a small desolate town

Presuming my mind
is where it needs to be
feeling the harmony of your destiny
resonating louder
sing along with me
to this unheard melody

Pick the locks off these chains
weighing me down
too tightly bound
disregard them on the ground
let them rust in the malicious silence

Adjacent to my heart
remote from my mind
I feel the sound
I'll feel it more with time
ticking the tock of this
day to day grind
searching to take
whats waiting to be mine
anticipate spreading my wings
visualizing the journey
from darkness to effulgent light

Listen for it...
the melody is not in your ear
the harmony you cannot expose
when your soul caresses the sounds ambition
It will become crystal clear
you will then know you have to
Shake off the silence,
cast away the fright
I am getting my running start
ready to take this flight
towards the sound that embraces my life.

Lyrical Nonsense

Lyrical nonsense
is my forte
There are so many things
I don't know how to say

I gave it a try
your an excellent guy
true to yourself
no need to lie

I formed some
feelings
within our
sexual healing
my mind you've been stealing
so recent and strong

I didn't know
I wasn't sure
if what I wanted
was with-in your cure
however, it didn't feel wrong.
You are what I want.

I am enticed
and I need to know more
I want to be a good woman to you
don't show me the door..

I am young, yet mature
I am crazy, and unsure
I know a connection
when I feel it
like a soft influence
drifting to your brain
for a moment you feel no pain
insane, untamed.

Why make it complicated
why worry about what we can't control
cant we form something
before we make it cold.

Yes I am bold,
forward and honest..
but you'd never have to worry about me
not being modest..

loyal, and genuine
before you I sit
take another hit, relax,
don't let it go out
you don't have me quite figured out
another kiss with no tricks
don't pass this up so quick.

11/2012

Relinquish Me

Relinquish me
let me go..
run fast
be like all the others
that can't administer me
no no no flee.
Its as routine
as the breaths
I take to breathe.

Anyone can write a love song
everyone can sing along
however love isn't what I want to be singing
its the happiness that follows that  I 've been missing.
Its the impracticable that keeps stinging.

lonely evenings
find me screaming
for anyone, anything, anytime
release my conviction
from the dungeon I built
torturous thoughts
consume my blood
drain me
dry dry dry

It is commonplace giving all that I can
never satisfied with out my heart
in my hand..
go ahead drop it in the sand.
I'll scourer this earth
for a new place to land
find my space..
now I am just sick of my own face.
fade fade fade

What now?
Where can I find
whatever it is I search?
like a unattainable pot of gold
at the end of a rainbow
always wanting
always reaching
never grasping
lose lose lose
lost

Love lost, friends gone
how is it I am always so wrong
why do you take from my soul
like a buffet table in a full room
I am not your meal to consume
I am not your sanity to resume
don't pretend
leave me be
leave me be
relinquish me.
-Crystal MacGinnis
 4/21/12

Fast Track

Fast Track
1/19/11

This is a story
about a girl
who never cared
about the world

she never thought
of the pain
she cause the people
standing in her rain

consequences
never mattered
and the girl
never cared to bother

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way
fast track journey
never looking back

a story of a girl
who gave him her world
he bruised the very thought
and it never mattered
and the girl
never cared to bother

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way fast track
journey
never looking back

that girl learned
how to be a woman
never taking no
as an answer
she took all her chances
make due with circumstances
finally learning her lesson

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way fast track
journey
never looking back
a one way journey
never looking back
shes on that journey

c.macginnis
a song more than a poem.

He Loves Me

He Loves me

He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.

Eyes of fire
lips inspire
world full of liars
you lift me higher

The only luck i've had
is when i found you
for the world we live
together to me is true.

hand in hand
you an i will venture this land
eyes to eyes
we realize the worlds plastic disguise

How could i have realized
what would happen at my own demise
how could i have cried
at losing who wasn't mine.
Now i sit, laughing a bit
at how life turned around
smacked me in shock on the ground
for you i have found
my life has meaning, it is a silent sound
love i have discovered

love different than a mothers
for you are my one and only
the butterflies flutter.

He loves me not
he loves me
is the last petal i picked
knowing this was it.

worth fighting for,
battle scars, and troubled lures.
i fought, now i am yours.
petals floating aimlessly, he loves me
hits the floor.

As this life we live together
opening up a new door.
I turned the knob,
your controlling the hinges
breaking the jam, with a sledgehammer in hand.
i will get in, and you will admit.
you love me.
flowers never lie.

He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.
left to wither
with a solemn choice
left with a mouth and voice
nothing to say
not today
rather than
he loves me.

C.MacGinnis
12/13/10

I-95

I-95
09/17/10

It was a trip written for the books
with the long hours, and the loving looks.
hearing the semi's fly on by
keeping the peace with our little guy.

Stopped at the fast food
of a strange little town
unsure if we should sit and eat
or drive and scarf it down.

looking for a hotel
seemed like a task
stick to shanty motels
is more than we could ask.

Passenger is telling her love
slow down, we're almost there
no need to get into a wreck
or another car door scare.

Driver laughs in good humor
at the passengers concern
for she always has something to say
how far to go, and which way to turn.

We spent this trip together
never to stop and think
of all the bad things that used to get us down
we left them at the Hudson river in Albany.

I learned so much of who you are
and why i love you so
i learned how much i wanted you
and how our relationship shines like gold.

Maybe down the line
we will make another trip
maybe we will find
a route that will stick.
We will venture once again
in a year or so thats it.
and when we do
i know its true
you and i like a puzzle
we fit..on our journey's
on our adventures of this
little road trip.

-Crystal MacGinnis

Radiant Romance

Radiant Romance
C.MacGinnis

It started with turbulence
unsure which step to take
in this alluring dance.
unsure of the actions i should make
with this loving trance.

Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.

Happiness is easy
when I'm with you.
the world revolves
at the same tempo
my heart beats are true.

Taking a step
towards a better life
taking a leap
never ending this
incredible fight
for love in life.

You had a bad time
with the ones before
always underestimating
what you have in store.

You found me now,
by your side i am proud
this dance is picking up beat
and were heading for the moon
in the stars we meet.

spinning wildly
into a unknown future
knowing we will be with each other
has closed all my past sutures
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.

Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
the moon shines for us.

Your as bright as the sun,
now its our turn to have the fun.
and escape this treacherous place together
with a fast paced run.
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.

8/13/10