Almost a Dad, pregnancy information for men. Caring for pregnant women, pregnancy nutrition, dealing with hormones, information and advice for expectant fathers.

Almost a Dad, pregnancy information for men. Caring for pregnant women, pregnancy nutrition, dealing with hormones, information and advice for expectant fathers.

Heart Pound Breakdown

Heart Pound Breakdown
1/22/13

Rest assured my dear
I love the sound of
your hearts cadence
The boom..boom..pound
break down

Didn't think I could
Didn't think I would
be found.

Started off as an
incomplete circle
Now its spinning around
As I am floating on a cloud

Don't care to come back
down to the ground
I'll keep my ear
on your chest
making a song
singing along
to your heart pound
breakdown

Innocent Connection

Innocent Connection
Written by: Crystal Mac

Moon surrenders softly
to a midnight kiss
grab my face
make me feel like this

The Moon is watching
ever so slightly
a barrier unraveled
grab me ever so tightly
let our minds travel

allow me to access your thoughts
allow you to access mine
a bond that can't be bought
no limits on time
seem to be finding what I sought
I don't need you
I want to just want you

No expectations,drama
or unnecessary stress
I am so excited
to see where this goes next
An innocent connection
displayed at its best.
12/26/12

Too Tightly Bound
By: Crystal MacGinnis
11/19/12

Systematically I feel like a failure
so much easier to just lay here
stop the moment of being defeated
for the moment stopped
descry the sound that is not in your ear
the sound you cannot hear
only felt can the sound be clear
I'll find it

Electrifying tunnels
Walloping wind spells
turning around
craving to be found
searching for that sound
in a small desolate town

Presuming my mind
is where it needs to be
feeling the harmony of your destiny
resonating louder
sing along with me
to this unheard melody

Pick the locks off these chains
weighing me down
too tightly bound
disregard them on the ground
let them rust in the malicious silence

Adjacent to my heart
remote from my mind
I feel the sound
I'll feel it more with time
ticking the tock of this
day to day grind
searching to take
whats waiting to be mine
anticipate spreading my wings
visualizing the journey
from darkness to effulgent light

Listen for it...
the melody is not in your ear
the harmony you cannot expose
when your soul caresses the sounds ambition
It will become crystal clear
you will then know you have to
Shake off the silence,
cast away the fright
I am getting my running start
ready to take this flight
towards the sound that embraces my life.

Lyrical Nonsense

Lyrical nonsense
is my forte
There are so many things
I don't know how to say

I gave it a try
your an excellent guy
true to yourself
no need to lie

I formed some
feelings
within our
sexual healing
my mind you've been stealing
so recent and strong

I didn't know
I wasn't sure
if what I wanted
was with-in your cure
however, it didn't feel wrong.
You are what I want.

I am enticed
and I need to know more
I want to be a good woman to you
don't show me the door..

I am young, yet mature
I am crazy, and unsure
I know a connection
when I feel it
like a soft influence
drifting to your brain
for a moment you feel no pain
insane, untamed.

Why make it complicated
why worry about what we can't control
cant we form something
before we make it cold.

Yes I am bold,
forward and honest..
but you'd never have to worry about me
not being modest..

loyal, and genuine
before you I sit
take another hit, relax,
don't let it go out
you don't have me quite figured out
another kiss with no tricks
don't pass this up so quick.

11/2012

Relinquish Me

Relinquish me
let me go..
run fast
be like all the others
that can't administer me
no no no flee.
Its as routine
as the breaths
I take to breathe.

Anyone can write a love song
everyone can sing along
however love isn't what I want to be singing
its the happiness that follows that  I 've been missing.
Its the impracticable that keeps stinging.

lonely evenings
find me screaming
for anyone, anything, anytime
release my conviction
from the dungeon I built
torturous thoughts
consume my blood
drain me
dry dry dry

It is commonplace giving all that I can
never satisfied with out my heart
in my hand..
go ahead drop it in the sand.
I'll scourer this earth
for a new place to land
find my space..
now I am just sick of my own face.
fade fade fade

What now?
Where can I find
whatever it is I search?
like a unattainable pot of gold
at the end of a rainbow
always wanting
always reaching
never grasping
lose lose lose
lost

Love lost, friends gone
how is it I am always so wrong
why do you take from my soul
like a buffet table in a full room
I am not your meal to consume
I am not your sanity to resume
don't pretend
leave me be
leave me be
relinquish me.
-Crystal MacGinnis
 4/21/12

Fast Track

Fast Track
1/19/11

This is a story
about a girl
who never cared
about the world

she never thought
of the pain
she cause the people
standing in her rain

consequences
never mattered
and the girl
never cared to bother

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way
fast track journey
never looking back

a story of a girl
who gave him her world
he bruised the very thought
and it never mattered
and the girl
never cared to bother

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way fast track
journey
never looking back

that girl learned
how to be a woman
never taking no
as an answer
she took all her chances
make due with circumstances
finally learning her lesson

shes on a one way
fast track journey
never looking back
a one way fast track
journey
never looking back
a one way journey
never looking back
shes on that journey

c.macginnis
a song more than a poem.

He Loves Me

He Loves me

He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.

Eyes of fire
lips inspire
world full of liars
you lift me higher

The only luck i've had
is when i found you
for the world we live
together to me is true.

hand in hand
you an i will venture this land
eyes to eyes
we realize the worlds plastic disguise

How could i have realized
what would happen at my own demise
how could i have cried
at losing who wasn't mine.
Now i sit, laughing a bit
at how life turned around
smacked me in shock on the ground
for you i have found
my life has meaning, it is a silent sound
love i have discovered

love different than a mothers
for you are my one and only
the butterflies flutter.

He loves me not
he loves me
is the last petal i picked
knowing this was it.

worth fighting for,
battle scars, and troubled lures.
i fought, now i am yours.
petals floating aimlessly, he loves me
hits the floor.

As this life we live together
opening up a new door.
I turned the knob,
your controlling the hinges
breaking the jam, with a sledgehammer in hand.
i will get in, and you will admit.
you love me.
flowers never lie.

He loves me
He loves me not
picking the petals
they float aimlessly
into a nestled spot.
left to wither
with a solemn choice
left with a mouth and voice
nothing to say
not today
rather than
he loves me.

C.MacGinnis
12/13/10

I-95

I-95
09/17/10

It was a trip written for the books
with the long hours, and the loving looks.
hearing the semi's fly on by
keeping the peace with our little guy.

Stopped at the fast food
of a strange little town
unsure if we should sit and eat
or drive and scarf it down.

looking for a hotel
seemed like a task
stick to shanty motels
is more than we could ask.

Passenger is telling her love
slow down, we're almost there
no need to get into a wreck
or another car door scare.

Driver laughs in good humor
at the passengers concern
for she always has something to say
how far to go, and which way to turn.

We spent this trip together
never to stop and think
of all the bad things that used to get us down
we left them at the Hudson river in Albany.

I learned so much of who you are
and why i love you so
i learned how much i wanted you
and how our relationship shines like gold.

Maybe down the line
we will make another trip
maybe we will find
a route that will stick.
We will venture once again
in a year or so thats it.
and when we do
i know its true
you and i like a puzzle
we fit..on our journey's
on our adventures of this
little road trip.

-Crystal MacGinnis

Radiant Romance

Radiant Romance
C.MacGinnis

It started with turbulence
unsure which step to take
in this alluring dance.
unsure of the actions i should make
with this loving trance.

Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.

Happiness is easy
when I'm with you.
the world revolves
at the same tempo
my heart beats are true.

Taking a step
towards a better life
taking a leap
never ending this
incredible fight
for love in life.

You had a bad time
with the ones before
always underestimating
what you have in store.

You found me now,
by your side i am proud
this dance is picking up beat
and were heading for the moon
in the stars we meet.

spinning wildly
into a unknown future
knowing we will be with each other
has closed all my past sutures
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.

Finally free from
loneliness
finally found you
in the midst of
a radiant romance
the stars are as bright as us.
the moon shines for us.

Your as bright as the sun,
now its our turn to have the fun.
and escape this treacherous place together
with a fast paced run.
its you and me now
lets start this breakdown.

8/13/10

I'm Thinkin' of You.

Its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moon's shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
couple clouds in sight
all the stars put up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you

summers night fervency
works its way right through me
i wish i was holdin' you tight
cause I'm thinkin' of you tonight.

memories i choose to play in my mind
remind me of a peaceful time
a time when all the world was fine
if even for that moment
when i saw it in your eyes
that you wanted to be mine.
the fireworks, in the pouring rain,
on the fourth of July.
another warm summer night,
and I'm thinkin' of you.

I hear my feet against the road
making a sound of easy going pursuit
knowing that no matter where i go
the rhythm would stay the same.
because its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you.

lets take this path
heads forward, aggressive and ready
take this world by the horns
and tell the unbelievers to shove it.
tired of what they have to offer
when all i really see
is the man who stands with a purpose
right directly in front of me

Its a beautiful night
and I'm thinkin' of you
that moons shinin' bright
and I'm thinkin' of you
a couple of clouds in sight
makes for a inspiring sight
stars puttin' up a fight
and I'm thinkin' of you.

7/22/10
C.MacGinnis

Manipulative con.

Manipulative Con.

Managing your thoughts
into believing she's true.
she contradicts herself
into feel brand new.
she will make sure you never forget her name
by making known to you
what she will never change.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..

You have a skill in your performance
always putting on a show
never sure who is watching
but it only matters if they are
willing to give you more.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..

Going around like a tornado
always changing your image
always skipping your path
always destroying everyone
who wasn't fit to pass.
your tests.

Image is everything
next to material
what would it take for
her to be real?
a drastic occurrence
a slap in the face
she needs to decide
what her fangs want to taste.
it's like looking into
the evil eyes of Medusa
make haste. make haste.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..

Your an old spool of thread
ready to eradicate
wrapped around yourself
with no one left to cripple
no more trades with the devil.
nothing left to possess..
leaving nothing simple.
until then, in case your hungry
the name brand baby food is on aisle 4.
bring a name brand bib
in case you dribble all over the floor.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..

Take what you think you have accomplished
with all of these suppressed people
take all this excitement
cast it out of your thick pampered head.
shoot it until it's dead.

Making a bad image
for women alike
making us look like
a poison in the night
your game is so clear
and your mind is so lost.
find yourself first
before you think your the boss.
you know nothing.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..


Your spool is unraveling
pretty soon it will be gone.
when it is, take all that you have learned
and think of all the mistakes you made for fun.
i am sure it will amount to a third degree burn.
In which the scars will never fade.
BY then all the people you have hurt
will make it into your inconsiderate mind
everyday..a torturous pay for your services.

Manipulative con,
take a walk
so far away, your name
will be only muttered in a crows caw ..
Manipulative con,
this battle was lost
you had him for a little while
now all hope for you is gone.
Manipulative con, from one woman
well to a girl
you did a swell job of ruining how
a lot of men, see the women in this world..

Do us a favor, keep your mouth shut
do us a favor, there is plenty of tools
so take a look for someone as vain as you..
then you know, their mind is an open canvas brand new.

Manipulative con
i see what you've done
i see who you hurt
for the excitement
and fun..
your game is at its demise.
there is no where left to run.

7/7/10
C.MacGinnis

For the World's Sake.

For the World's Sake.

Cascading into my mind
pouring down outside
to stop the evil of time
for a moment
would be divine.

Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.

A possibility arises
to see through daily devises
to see through the moments that hide us
and become who we always we're.
appreciating the universe
and all its worth.

Pounding endlessly
or though it seems
drowning out all that is
untrue, and mean
hitting the scorching earth
creating some steam.
all of us working against each other,
when we should be like the rain
and work as a team.

One drop alone,
will get no where.
no one cares.
add a million to that one,
and it creates pools, and puddles
reflecting the sun..
food for greenery.
keeping this worlds vegetation growing on.
that raindrop couldn't have done it alone.

Take the initiative, find out who your neighbor is
work as a whole human race
desire to be alone is making our species a disgrace
so push out that taste
reveal your saddened face
and start working together
in this lifetimes pace.
For the world's sake.

Take in the air
the world around us
listen to the music
nature supplies us.
For the world's sake.
make this ride worth the wake.

7/2/10
C.MacGinnis

i am not to fear.

here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong

i walk this path
waiting for something
i walk this road
my heart beat is pumping
tired of putting everything i am
into something that ends up
falling through the cracks of my hands.

i see the pain your mind inflicts
i see the time you waste on this.
i see that you don't see who i am
or who i'd be in the world you seek.

i have tried my entire life
i have tried for all things
i felt we're right
i have been pushed aside
too many times
so here i sit
the idea is clear
your smoking it up
and it isn't me you should fear.
find me a heart ache
and ill know it well.
you won't let me help you
pull you out of this hell.

here i am, sitting here
you'd think the connection
was crystal clear
you'd think my intentions
are not to fear
but i am wrong.

-C.MacGinnis
6/17/10

Light as a Feather

Light as a Feather

Cascade into me
show me all that you know
grasp my body tight
keep me impervious
through the dead of
night

Concentrate my soul
only rays of purity
the verity of who we used to be
the fact of who we're meant to be.
maybe we're meant to be together.
for our sanity.

Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.

Irrevocable before i met you
unsure of what to do
Now you have fallen in with me
into the land we have brought light to.

Let's reside here blissfully
never worried about worldly things
never wondering what each other thinks
only realizing having one another
is a dive into bona fide ecstasy.

Harmonious adventures
seek us pleasure
Extraordinary we are
light as a feather.

6/4/10
C.MacGinnis

Vagrant

I don't want to be a vagrant
tired of people considering me a burden.
always the first to answer when you call
always the last to get an answer, when i call.

resorted to small self indulgences
resorted to hopping this privacy fence
guarding life's pleasures
wash and dry my soul
like a pair of dirty pants.

a lot of times
i feel alone in this world
with nothing to count on.
constantly being let down
by people i relied on.

I am afraid of being alone
tired of feeling this way
venture into the sun
into another day
finding the words to say
to describe this hurt
this feeling of neglect
this tiring world is wrecked

i am a nuisance,
feeling like a vagrant
hoping things turn around
praying life's battles turn upside down
wishing a few occurrences in my life
would work out
for my benefit

trying harder is what i must do
trying hard is the only way to prove
to anyone, i am no beggar
i am not your burden
i am not your obligation
i am a human being, living with you in this saddened nation
finding my life going in a strange direction
waiting for karma rotation

i deserve a chance at this life
i need to try harder
keep my head up, and lock in my sights.
i know i shine, and i refuse to allow my own mind
to dim my own light.

I don't want to be a vagrant
tired of people considering me a burden.
I will fight these curses
and when its all over
these memories of hard times
will be sacred.

5/12/10
C.MacGinnis

The Search

The Search

Not sure anymore, uncertain of my choices
behind each closed door
Find me lying on the floor
seeking answers in the grains of dirt
surrounding my head, my back is sore.

Which way do i wander
Where do i lay my troubled mind
to slumber?

Reached a point of counting numbers,
until the end of time, for mankind
maybe then i will find the answers,
i long to intertwine with my life.

Figuring out if i am worth your time, his time, anyones time.
No one can fight life's battles alone
I have been trying to for so long, and i'm tired.
i try to escape my thoughts with the only solace i have anymore
in the debths of my writing and songs.

Life is trying to finish me off, end this suffering,
similar to prey thats been hunted,
tell me i can't and i will,
traveling through life
searching endlessly for
something thats real.
something to feel.

-C.MacGinnis
5/12/10

Your Shine is Bright

Your Shine is Bright

I see the man behind the pain

I see what you came to be

I see the torture you endured

at a timely pace you matured

your life has burned you

and it hurt like hell

yet you continue working your way

down your unpaved trail.

you let it shove you harder and harder

into a spiral of uncontrollable sadness

and yet you brought yourself up over this trouble

released yourself from the madness

i see who you are

the beauty you possess

i see the man who has broken free

that look suits you best.

your eyes tell a story

when your mouth doesn't want to

your humor finds me on the floor

smothered in laughter

your wild ideas and thoughts of the future

have a beauty in their own

hours could pass by listening to you

and those hours would go by

un-missed and unknown.

indescribable feelings you conjured inside me

helped me see its okay to just be me

inspired me to write this down

sing it loud, but don't be too proud.

your a beautiful person

your light shines brighter than the sun

your eyes are brighter than the moon

and your suffered spirits bindings

are finally coming undone.

ripped free from the grip

that held you so tight

suffocating you like a python in the night

there is no time

they want to hold you back

to inch closer to dim your light

not seeing the strength you have

in their sight.

you hold the potential,

pride, and will

to be the man i see

behind life's attempt

at an emotional kill.

you my dear friend

are a beautiful person

with your light as bright as the sun

your eyes as bright as the moon

with your spirits suffocating bindings

surely coming undone,

if i can tell you anything

pass anything along

my only piece i give to you

never dim that light for anyone.

4/30/10

Baby Jane

Baby Jane
Tamara Dougherty i love you.

Hello baby girl
with your slanted tired eyes
you just took a journey
no one remembers in their life

Hi there sweet newborn
knowing nothing more
than your mothers warmth.
and voice.

A shell of innocence
with your inability
to be corrupted
i love you baby girl
already.

You are here now,
with this world against you
but you will be a strong one
from the folks who will raise you
your beauty will flow over
and your love will be true
your loyalties will follow
shortly behind your Aries attitude.

I can't wait to meet you little one
i can't wait to see you and your mom and pops.
together, at-last.
A journey that took a while,
that you won't remember
but we will all keep in our hearts
and grow with you, into the future
keeping you safe.
welcome to this world.
we we're all ready to see you gorgeous face.


3/23/10
-C.MacGinnis
Dedicated To: baby Jane<3